there are many issues which i wanted to blog about but i momentarily suffered a "writer's block" and therefore not able to put anything which makes sense here.

i'm rushing my freakin reports and projects, and its driving me crazy.
i'm pissed off with my immune system because i'm sick YET again. the stupid polyclinic refused to give me antibiotics the last time i went.
now, i know better and visited Healthway instead of wasting my precious time at some polyclinic waitin for some doc to prescribe paracet to me. URGH. so infuriating. i told the Polyclinic doc that paracet doesn't work. he told me it would. and gave me just one day mc. i fell sick with fever again for the next few days. i tell you, it felt like shit.
now i have a freakin throat infection. hope it goes away soon. SIGH.
sad la really. feel so fuckin weak nowadays. had a throbbing headache this morning and had to drag myself out of bed too.
common tests are coming up. i cant wait for my 2 weeks + Xmas + New Year's break.

oh, and on a side note, I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT WHEN STRAIGHT GUYS USE YOU TO GET TO SOMEONE ELSE. it doesn't matter whether we're close or not, but its pretty damn irritating when someone msges u out of the blue(when he never does) to ask for so and so's (slot in pretty girl's name here) contact. it has occurred MANY times and its damn irritating. usually i give la, with the girl's consent of course, but it makes me think very VERY lowly of them. i empathise when girl friends cry and cry over how the guy they like is paying more attention to their prettier girl friend. it pisses me off when they are so bloody fuckin dense, (they know the girl likes them of course) and continue getting close to her just to get close to that particular friend.
be genuine about wanting to talk la, you dont msg and just ask for something because you want it. and females are relenting usually, so please DONT take advantage of that.
within 3 days, 2 guy friends msged me to ask for so-and-so's number. not the same girl la. and due to earlier incidents with other ppl, i decided that i wasn't being overly sensitive. urgh.
i was telling meng the other day, "hm it would be very different if you were straight."
then he retorted, "yea but if i were straight i would have dumped you and went to look for some other girl friend."
haha, yea it was candid and direct, but it was TRUE. ALOT of guys do that, not all though, thank God.thank God seriously.
i'm glad for a lot of friendships built up over the years. very few close friends, but they're enough. and i hope they feel the same way. :) at least i know a few do. haha.
sigh, i really wonder what would happen to the late night conversations.
thank you for making this friendship very real, and making me feel cared for and appreciated.

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you